noblesentiments ([info]noblesentiments) wrote,
@ 2007-07-16 03:15:00
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On Guard by Gloria Lancaster
This is a sweet, gentle story which I feel great affection for every time I read it. Through Doyle's eyes we are introduced to the enigma that is 'soldier', the man who helps save Doyle's life and who Doyle - in his vulnerable state in a foreign land - becomes in turn emotionally attached to, then fascinated by this man of mystery.

He thought about Soldier when most of his brief time in Africa had faded. When he dreamed at all, he dreamed about the hard hands rescuing him, brisk and efficient. In all the horror the hands would keep him safe.

......and yet, 'Soldier' can still manage to get under Doyle's skin, Bodie style:

So, how's it going old son?" Soldier asked.

"My name is Ray Doyle," Ray snapped, irritated by the hot darkness and the biting insects and the lack of milk in his tea.

"So, how's it going Ray Doyle?" Soldier repeated solemnly. Ray hid his smile within his tea mug and ignored the question.


'Centurian' Bodie: the tall, dark, handsome guardian, always there for Doyle - just how I imagine Bodie:

.......I'll keep guard just like always, no big bad monsters'll get you while I'm around," and a hard and capable hand brushed his curls very gently and Ray felt himself being tucked in like he was a child again, then blessed darkness, cool as moss. Drowsily, the last thing he noticed was Bodie stretching out beside him on top of the covers, laid out like a Crusader in a church, hands folded and legs crossed at the ankle. Keeping guard just like always.

And without revealing too much more about the story I will just say how much I love the following lines and how beautifully they express what they're feeling about each other:

"………………How long have I scared you, tell me the truth."

"Since this morning, since I dragged you out of that Mission and you threw up over me, since a day by the river and I noticed your hair was the colour of autumn, since that night in the bowling alley, since the morning you came back from the wedding--


*Please* go read (if you haven't already):

http://hatstand.slashcity.net/gloria/onguard.html
http://www.thecircuitarchive.com/tca/archive/3/onguard.html



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[info]heliophile_oxon
2007-07-16 09:26 pm UTC (link)
Yes! I love this story. It's incredibly moving, incredibly poignant. There's a moment when Doyle quotes approximately from As You Like It, Men have died from time to time, and worms have eaten them, but not for love, and it works perfectly and beautifully: he's being so self-depreciating and denying himself the cheap comfort of over-dramatizing, but he really is dying inside almost without realizing it. Oh, this story is beautiful.

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[info]shooting2kill
2007-07-16 09:34 pm UTC (link)
Well, I'm flabbergasted on two counts: the speed of your response! I posted, turned round to sip some coffee, turned back and there you were! I duly confer upon you the Highest Order of the Quickest Response Thingy medal. Second, I had no idea the story contained a quote from Shakespeare, so thanks for that. I like to know these things, you know, and it puts a whole new light on this quotes game.

Seriously, I'm so glad you liked it too - I always think it's very quietly moving.

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[info]heliophile_oxon
2007-07-16 10:00 pm UTC (link)
The speed was purely fortuitous - I've only just logged on! But I shall wear my medal with pride nonetheless :)(I had to double-check which play it was from, though)

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[info]noblesentiments
2007-07-16 10:05 pm UTC (link)
Can you give me a rough idea where that bit appears? I can't find it. Thanks.

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[info]heliophile_oxon
2007-07-16 10:25 pm UTC (link)
I just checked: Rosalind talking to Orlando - act IV scene 1

I like Rosalind - a brave, no-nonsense heroine! (though I think I like Beatrice in Much Ado About Nothing even more, with her wicked tongue)

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[info]noblesentiments
2007-07-16 10:32 pm UTC (link)
Oh, thanks for that. I can't comment on the play as it's one I've never done (unless I was absent that day.....). Do you remember where it appears in the Lancaster story? Can't find it.

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[info]heliophile_oxon
2007-07-16 10:42 pm UTC (link)
Sorry, I'm an idiot - I should have realized! ::kicks brain back into gear::

It's roughly 3/4 of the way through (bit vague, I know) - just after the scene where Ray gets up early after the wedding and drives back down to London and Bodie comes over to join him for breakfast. The whole passage it appears in is:

Ray watched them drive away and he wished, not for the first time that day, that he was in Susan Grant's shoes. Bodie always had a taste for the upper crust.

Ray had stolen a look at Bodie's file once and found it drearily predictable: council estate then local comprehensive school, a dad who belted him and a mother who drank--only natural he turns out to be a bit of a snob. Credit where it's due thought Ray, the bugger fits in anywhere and he's never servile even when rubbing shoulders with Ministers or Royalty. Princess Anne for one thought he was a teddy-bear.

He sighed. You and me both dear.

Still, Susan was obviously just his cup of tea. She was nice too, Ray acknowledged dully and wondered if all this was getting to him. This melancholy mood didn't shift, no matter what he did. Do grown men pine away? Men have died and the worms have eaten them but not for love, he remembered idly and thought again what a load of old cobblers that was. This was the worst thing that had happened to him in his whole life.

No, be honest, it was the best. Always.


::sigh::

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[info]shooting2kill
2007-07-16 11:03 pm UTC (link)
Sorry, I'm an idiot - I should have realized! ::kicks brain back into gear::

Not at all! It's nice to find out where both of them are....and I want to be enlightened and it's great to think that in reading some Pros slash I'm also extending my knowledge of Shakespeare (much more fun than being at school).

Still, Susan was obviously just his cup of tea. She was nice too, Ray acknowledged dully and wondered if all this was getting to him. This melancholy mood didn't shift, no matter what he did. Do grown men pine away? Men have died and the worms have eaten them but not for love, he remembered idly and thought again what a load of old cobblers that was. This was the worst thing that had happened to him in his whole life.


Thanks so much for this. I did speedread over that bit but missed it. I love the way she rounds off that very nice piece with a good old dose of self-effacing, anti-intellectualism what a load of old cobblers that was - just in case it all got a bit embarassing(!). More typical of Bodie, I'd say, but I can imagine Doyle saying that as well.

Thanks again!

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[info]angel_ci5
2007-07-16 09:50 pm UTC (link)
I think I may have mentioned it to you before ;-), but I love this author, and I love "On Guard"!
All her stories are absolutely brilliant, and this one is just beautiful, the writing is exquisite.

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[info]noblesentiments
2007-07-16 10:07 pm UTC (link)
Oh, I'm so glad you like her too. She did have a story (or a sequel, can't quite remember) which I think she planned to finish, so hopefully she hasn't left Pros permanently. Cheers.

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[info]ancastar
2007-07-16 11:18 pm UTC (link)
I love, love, love this story and this author, and you are responsible as you brought up Gloria Lancaster awhile back, and I ran out and read everything by her. The examples you pointed out were superb, but let me also add how much I love the quiet morning the lads spend together after Doyle goes out of town for the family wedding. It's one of my favorite interludes in all of Pros fandom.

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[info]noblesentiments
2007-07-16 11:26 pm UTC (link)
It's one of my favorite interludes in all of Pros fandom.

Now that is quite an admission which has inspired me to go back and read it again! Thanks.

And thanks so much for saying Noble helped you to discover this writer - it's comments like that which really make the journal worth doing.

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[info]ancastar
2007-07-17 12:19 am UTC (link)
You may be disappointed with the section as, honestly, nothing much happens. It's the subtext of the thing that gets me. That, and the way Bodie leaves Doyle. In Doyle's own words (thoughts):

I can't take much more, Ray said to himself. I'm only human.

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[info]angel_ci5
2007-07-17 08:28 am UTC (link)
Oh yes, that line gets me every time too!
('scuse me butting in!)

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[info]shooting2kill
2007-07-17 11:45 am UTC (link)
You 'butt' in whenever you want to, sunshine! Your posts are highly valued, if I may say so.

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[info]ancastar
2007-07-17 12:57 pm UTC (link)
Butt away! I'm glad you enjoy that line too. The story is just so lovely.

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[info]ancastar
2007-07-17 12:58 pm UTC (link)
"Narrow minded old bats. I wanted to take out my gun and shoot them."

"Balanced as ever. It's what I like about you Ray, you're so sane about things. Did you?"

Oh, I know! Isn't that wonderful? They're so comfortable with each other.

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[info]shooting2kill
2007-07-17 12:00 pm UTC (link)
Thanks for bringing my attention to this section in particular. Not only did I like the sub-text but the actual text itself was so well written - she captures their voices in a nutshell:

Woman, get that kettle on,"............................

......... Narrow minded old bats. I wanted to take out my gun and shoot them."

"Balanced as ever. It's what I like about you Ray, you're so sane about things. Did you?"


Oh, she's good, very good.

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[info]callistosh65
2007-07-17 01:30 pm UTC (link)
You see? This is why I praise you far and wide. I'd heard of this story and writer vaguely, but always assumed it was some kind of AU and never looked any further - silly me. Now I have just read it and fallen in love. I must do as [info]ancastar did and read everything she's written now. Such warmth, and confidence somehow in her writing. And that lovely quiet humour too - He dossed down in a spare single bed and awoke to Paradise; Bodie bending over him with a mug of tea, a bacon butty and a smile.

Just. Wow.

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[info]shooting2kill
2007-07-17 01:41 pm UTC (link)
Callistosh, I want to have your children - you make me so *happy*!! Thank you, thank you. And I'm so pleased that something written here has resulted in you finding another story which you might not otherwise have found.

As I sort of said earlier, I found it harder than usual trying to explain *why* I love this story so much and it's comments here which are helping me discover my own feelings......and you're right, she does write with a quiet, modest kind of confidence and this story in particular *is* warm and kind of gentle. And yes, funny, too, but not so funny that it distracts from the more serious side of what they're discovering in each other. awoke to Paradise; Bodie bending over him with a mug of tea, a bacon butty and a smile Bodie and the bacon butty, in that order! Paradise regained.

Thank *you* Callistosh.

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[info]callistosh65
2007-07-17 02:11 pm UTC (link)
I want to have your children - you make me so *happy*!!Thank you, thank you LOL!!! You're very welcome! I need sites like this and [info]ci5hq to get those detailed recs. I love it when I 'discover' smn new to me, so thank *you*.

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[info]shooting2kill
2007-07-17 08:03 pm UTC (link)
I love it when I 'discover' smn new to me, so thank *you*.

I agree. It's one of *the* best feelings isn't it? And we're so lucky in Pros to have good, new writers still appearing - after all this time.

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[info]gloria1
2007-07-17 07:44 pm UTC (link)
Thank you! I'm amazed (and honestly humbled) that people still read my stories and still enjoy them. It means a lot to me.

Hopefully, I'll have another story to share one day (soon).

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[info]shooting2kill
2007-07-17 08:01 pm UTC (link)
Hopefully, I'll have another story to share one day (soon).

Oh, I really do hope so.....(no pressure!) And thanks so much for dropping in. That means a lot to me, too.

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[info]shooting2kill
2007-07-17 08:13 pm UTC (link)
And I've just seen that On Guard was recommended here, too:

http://www.alijot.net/The_Professionals_Recs.htm

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[info]byslantedlight
2007-07-18 02:24 pm UTC (link)
Oh I do like this story too - there's something just right about the almost-unspoken intensity with which Doyle longs for Soldier once he's safely back home, and that we find out Soldier thought more of him than Doyle thought he did - that his terse, clipped words had more meaning behind them than on the surface, which is Pros through and through, I think...

Thanks for the rec, and for reminding me to read it again! I'm reading alot of unknowns at the moment, and it's nice to space them out with classics like this one! More please? *g*

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[info]shooting2kill
2007-07-18 04:36 pm UTC (link)
Oh, thanks so much for that. Your thoughtful comments always make me look at something anew.

And yes, almost-unspoken intensity I really like the way you put that and I think it's partly to do with Doyle's physical state and thus his state of mind when he first meets Bodie which partly leads to his greater emotional dependence on him.

I'm reading a lot of unknowns at the moment

Ooooh, I didn't know you were a fan of get-thee-behind-me-Donald Rumsfeld.

I'm reading a lot of unknowns at the moment, and it's nice to space them out with classics like this one!

I know what you mean....I'm doing the same and I think I'm coming to the conclusion that we are in the throes (throws?) of yet another new wave of writing, which is fascinating, really.

More please?

Well, twist my arm....actually, it's funny you should say that as I am in the middle of reading another old favourite which is quite an intense read, in a quiet sort of way (if that's not a contradiction in emotions), but so far there aren't any particular lines or passages which jump out at me as quotable and I don't want the choice of quotes to be contrived or anything, but something which springs uncontrollably from within (stop me if you think I'm overdoing it), something which I love and which I'm *forced* to choose because they're totally irresistible and I want to share them WITH THE WORLD! BUT, there's time, yet.....

Thanks so much for sharing your thoughts!

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[info]paris7am
2007-07-21 04:26 am UTC (link)
Deep sigh. I have such love for this story. Thank you for the wonderful description of it and for the lovely quotes!

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[info]shooting2kill
2007-07-21 11:51 am UTC (link)
Oh, thank *you* for dropping in, P! I know you've got a lot of catching up to do and I really appreciate it.

And I *thought* you liked this story - it's just got that certain something, hasn't it?

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